IMH

I M Happy.

"No..no..no...I can't do thurty dollars. Today I sell yuu 30 tomorrow I close down!"

No no no, my name's not 'happy'. Rather, I am Happy. And I am happy for several reasons. Of which, I am just going to mention one. I do not deny that many would speculate the other reasons... so... Happy guessing!

I have been really tied up at work. I may appear slack, yes I do appear to do so. Outward behaviour does not equate to inward feelings all the time. I'm talking with reference to my response towards work life balance. Physical tiredness is a job hazard for my line. Not just that, a bad throat seems to await me, lurking at some dark corners along a heavy week. Solution?

Water.

Staying hydrated keeps the throat alive as well. And as such, I have taken on the habit of buying mineral water from some Watsons, Guardian or any friendly minimart. Gosh, I have had the pleasure of resting from training this first week of October. That, of course, was fully used to prepare for the next 3.5 weeks of non-stop action. It's going to be packed and exciting! I will have my many first attempts in solutions which I have not trained before. It is exciting, too, because I'm into the 3rd month at HA. I hope I get confirmed.

It's a job I enjoy. My values are challenged. Not that this company carries a whole new set of values different from mine. In fact, they are similar if not almost the same. So why are my values challenged? A song I vaguely recall has its lyrics as such... "let my life speak loud..." Yeap, this part of my brain has goldfish memory. (Note: Only this part. Don't generalize)

So how should I let this life speak loud?

Obviously it's through speech and actions.

Human beings respond better to visual aids. In fact, it speaks louder at about 55% (loud) compared to mere speeches which probably deliver the same message at only 7% (loud).

I'm no longer a student. And I'm not entitled to enjoying student meals nor travelling at a student rate. I had to say no when a friend volunteered to help buy me a student meal. And yes! By the grace and sweet mercies of God, I was able to relinquish my joyful monthly usage of student bus concession. It took me quite a while. The cajoling of friends and people in the life group. But more than that, it was the conviction of God.

Well, all it took was a session with this class of students when I spoke about integrity. It's funny how God speaks even at the 'weirdest' moment. It was as though I'm preaching to myself about having a certain level of integrity. It gripped my heart and the picture of my student EZ-link card flashed before me while I continued speaking to them. And so, I decided. How can I be telling them to build a character of honesty, integrity and doing what is right when I am indirectly breaking the law? And so, the journey of 'walk to the train station' and 'walk home from the train station' begun... Yes, I have had days of perspiration and days with cool wind blowing upon my face.

God is so so good. I can't express enough through words. My heart is glad as I see His hand upon me in this season of my life. Having a knowledge of God purposefully placing me in an environment that I am in now, warms and assures me of my destiny ahead.

And I M Happy.